Marci Ferrell has never spoken publicly about having an abortion when she was 18 until this week on the radio program HAVEN Today. Her story comes in contrast with Jenny Kutner, an editor on feminism at Salon, who posted an article last week about getting ready for her abortion. Jenny ends by saying that her only concern is that she gets her birth control right next time.
With that in mind, may the Lord minister to you through Marci’s story.
Charles Morris – HAVEN Ministries
When I was 18 I had an abortion. I was unmarried, living with relatives, and I thought having a baby at this time would just add to the problems I already had. I was leading a rebellious life and not living at home. I couldn’t imagine sharing this with the family I was living with, so I took matters into my own hands.
That day was the ugliest day of my life. It hurt so much and it was extremely difficult to come home unable to share what I had been through with anyone. There was much time spent alone in my room crying with no one to turn to for help. There hasn’t been a day in my life that I don’t think about that little baby whose life I took.
Jeremiah 1:5 says, “Before I formed you in the womb, I knew you.”
We are all created and designed by a wonderful God, and the same is true of every child in the womb. No one is a mistake and no baby is an accident.
Several years later I found myself in the same situation, pregnant and unmarried. This time I was determined to keep the baby. I had not healed from my first aborted pregnancy and couldn’t imagine going through that kind of pain and guilt again. I told the father that he didn’t have to marry me or help with the baby, that I would take care of this little one on my own instead.
Charles Morris asks, “What motivates you to try and talk young women out of having abortions today?” Taken from Marci’s full interview on HAVEN Today.
To my surprise, Doug wanted to get married and raise the baby with me. After 27 years I still find myself growing more and more in love with my Doug everyday. And we have been blessed with two beautiful children, a boy and a girl.
Doug’s parents were Christians, so we had heard the gospel a lot from his side of the family. As I look back, I can see the Lord drawing us to Him. I started attending a small neighborhood church that wasn’t preaching the gospel, and I assumed that I would go to heaven because I was being a good person.
I did not have a relationship with Jesus Christ.
But then I met Trena while exercising and she invited me back to her home for coffee. She loves to talk about Jesus and when she shared with me about the work of the Lord in her life, she helped me understand that I was missing something. I was religious but I didn’t have a relationship with Jesus like Trena did.
I was missing Jesus.
I took the kids to Trena’s church that Sunday (Doug stayed home), and I was led to a saving knowledge of Jesus Christ. For the first time I realized I was a sinner against a holy and righteous God. I understood that God is perfect and will punish sin. But God is also rich in mercy and sent His perfect Son, Jesus Christ, to die as a substitute and ransom for rebellious sinners. Jesus willingly died on the cross and took the punishment for my sin, so that through my repentance and faith in Him I was saved from the wrath to come.
What a glorious moment when my eyes were opened to the free gift of salvation through repentance and faith in Jesus Christ! The Lord saved Doug later that week and I cannot even express to you the changes that happened in such a short amount of time in our home. There was a celebration with Doug’s family and with our new family of believers.
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.
2 Corinthians 5:17
Life is a gift and it is precious. Since I have come to a saving knowledge of Jesus Christ I have come to know that I am truly forgiven for the choice I made to abort my first baby. There is so much freedom and forgiveness found at the cross when we confess our sins in humble repentance to the Lord and know that He offers us forgiveness and grace, even when we don’t deserve it.
All Abby Johnson ever wanted to do was help women. She believed in a woman’s right to choose, and as one of the youngest Planned Parenthood clinic directors in the nation, she was involved in upwards of 22,000 abortions. Until the day she saw something that changed everything, leading Abby Johnson to join her former enemies at 40 Days for Life, and become one of the most ardent pro-life advocates in America.