Have you ever felt alone or not wanted? Did you feel misunderstood and just wanted to die? In his great despair, Job said, “May the day of my birth perish” (3:3). Job also said, “Why did I not perish at birth, and die as I came from the womb” (3:11)? Perhaps Job’s desperate words ring true for you as they have for me.


I’ll never forget the first time my mother told me that she wished that she’d never had me. Both of my parents did not want me. I grew up feeling as if I was a mistake. At age 11 I was alone on the streets. By age 15 I was locked up for murder and was utterly alone.


Like most Christians, I sincerely wanted to be more like Christ. But as Jesus says, “the flesh is weak.” While I wrestled with feelings of suicide, the Spirit lead me to Psalm 27:10. I finally found the truth that I had someone to take me in and protect me. What a comfort these words were and are for me! For the first time in my life, I feel safe in the Lord, my refuge. All praise goes to Jehovah God, the One who takes me in!